Sometimes I wonder if I'm being the best person I can be. I thought about this all night last night. I ended up writing a couple poems because my mind would not allow me to sleep! I was thinking about my dad, my financial situation, my friends, where I would be in 10 years, 20 years, if I would ever get married and how that would happen, If I didn't get married I was thinking about how I still wanted kids, so then I decided I would adopt a child or become a foster parent one day, why my life seems to be going in fast forward but I feel like I'm in slow motion. EVERYTHING!!! I think I'm a pretty good person to the outside world. I love my sisters and my mother unconditionally. I would do virtually anything in my power for any one of my girlfriends. I would give a stranger a hand if I was able to. But on the inside I'm starting to feel a little selfish. I guess its not a bad thing to some people but I hate feeling selfish. One thing I hate even more is when I'm selfless to someone that is selfish and thoughtless, but I guess that means I never really was selfless if I was offended by that other persons selfishness... I'm not sure what this all means.
